I rarely remember my dreams. When I was a teenager, I actually thought that I didn’t dream, because for a period of several years I didn’t remember a single dream.
It turns out that everyone dreams all of the time. Even if you never remember a single dream, you still dream at night. That’s just the way that the human body works.
Last night, or early this morning, I had a dream that I remember very vividly. It was long and story-like. And it was horrible.
In the dream, my girlfriend was pregnant. (Insert joke about that being horrible here.)
Things were going along well, and I was able to gather that, in this dream world, the pregnancy was a good thing and that we were very excited to have our first child.
Then it got bad.
I don’t remember a lot of the details at this point. Mostly it was just visceral, horrible emotion.
There was a miscarriage. There was crying. There was sadness. And there was some of the most intense emotional pain I have suffered, especially considering that it was a dream and none of it really happened.
When I woke up, I was seriously messed up. I was in a daze of depression and devastation for a couple of hours this morning before I left for work.
Shortly after waking up, I looked up miscarriage dreams online to try and see if I could figure out the meaning. Perhaps not surprisingly, everything about this type of dream had to do with women having them. Why would a man dream about his girlfriend or wife having a miscarriage, after all?
So, I pretty much have no idea how to interpret this dream, other than that it was the worst dream I have ever dreamt and that I’m still pretty damn shaken up about it.
I have rarely felt an emotional pain this raw and visceral, and never as the result of a dream.
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that’s insane.
last night I dreamed I was a captain of a submarine and the sailors under my command wouldn’t stop singing show-tunes. Irritating, but not horrifying like your dream…
Yeah, it was pretty intense. It’s still kind of bothering me, half a day later.
On the bright side, your comment about your own dream made me literally laugh out loud.
I’ve had dreams that have effected me for months. However, I am skeptical about dream interpretation. I don’t think dreams mean as much as some people think they do. Doubtless they can have powerful effects, but I wonder if they really mean anything.
I’m not sure how much I buy into dream interpretation, either, to be honest. A lot of it seems to be based on Freudian psychology which is generally considered inaccurate and invalid by practicing psychologists today.
But, hey, literary theorists and all kinds of other “soft sciences” folks love it. Dream interpretation seems to fall into this second category. I find it interesting, but I’m pretty skeptical of it, too.
Dreams mean different things to different people. Personally I don’t buy into dream interpretation in the slightest. You felt horrible and shaken up in your dream simply because the things that you love the most were threatened. A dream like that is by far more scary than any conventional nightmare involving phobias like ghosts or snakes or something.
In my opinion, I think your sub-conscious mind was merely expressing the way you feel for your family (that is, your girlfriend and the potential family you might create in the future). If you know that you love your girlfriend (and I assume you do!), your dream is allowing you to explore just how much you care for her and how devastated you would be if something should happen to you as a family unit.
I think your dream served to make you understand just how strong your feelings are when it comes to your family (or potential family). The best way to understand something is to feel emotions so strong that you can’t ignore them.
Michelle – That definitely seems to make sense as a possible interpretation of this dream. A very good one. I’ll roll with it. Thanks.